Ugh.

It's been one of those days. I don't understand why they don't do "Preschooler think it over" it would be much more effective. Enough said.

I'm gonna hug you and kiss you and love you to pieces!!!

She really reminds me of...



This being said I have to remain vigilant at all times. I am greatful for the lack of jealousy on her part but the phrase "I love you to death" is begining to have a frighteningly realistic ring to it!!! As long as we call Pantera "big helper" she is more than willing to do anything for us. It's pretty great, although she wants to change a diaper in the worst kind of way and I would have to go back and refasten it. With any other kid it would be fine, but Pantera would surely notice!!! So for the meantime she brings me diapers and wipes, throws the dirty diapers away and asks me great questions while I am changing Ezekiel like "why do chihuahua's speak spanish?" The other day I was changing Zeke at a friends house and their little girl was in the room. She got so excited and told me "My, my, my dad has one of those, and when he goes potty he SQUEEZES it!!!" I laughed so hard I thought I would pee myself.

1st haircut

Yesterday was a big day at our house. First of all Jess went back to work after over 2 weeks off. It went better then I thought it would, I just might be able to handle both kids;) Ezekiel's umbilical cord stump FINALLY fell out. And he had his first haircut. Yes, I know, I know traditionally you keep the "cute baby hair" forever and let them look ridiculous, but I couldn't stand it anymore. There had been mention of a baby mullet and I can't have that!!! Unfortunately all the hair under that weird patch of baby hair is really coarse like Jess' so I don't think I will be able to do much but buzz it:(

Pantera has been changing her clothes about 30 times a day. She dresses up like a princess and wants me to play Peter Pan with her. The only catch is that Zeke has to be Tinkerbell...poor kid! She met another girl named Tera at the park today. That was the coolest thing to her she kept saying "I can't believe there is another Tera!!! And she has blond hair!" Unfortunately the other Tera's dad started smoking so naturally little Pantera gave him the 3rd degree. It went a little like this: "why are you smoking?" "It's a bad habit and I need to quit. Thanks for reminding me." "You're going to die." She sure does have a way with words.

Cute pics

Today we introduced Zeke to the pacifier. Jess was happy because he finally was able to hold him without screaming. He really is a good baby...as long as he is attached to me. Luckily I love nursing:) We are starting a reward system to hopefully help Pantera's lack of listening, wish us luck!!!

Nini light.

The first pictures made me laugh. I put that winnie the pooh beanie on him and thought that is probably how Eminem got started. If only his mother knew then...

Pantera was very interested in the whole nursing process at first. She kept asking me if she could nurse too. This really wierded me out, but it is Pantera so what is new? We have these lights all over the house and the day after I got home from the hospital there was a bug on the one in the living room. Pantera came in and said "Mom, come see this bug on the thing that looks like your nini!" I'll let you'ns figure out what a nini is from here! Why would you have lights that look like that???

Grandma

Grandma Mary came to visit this weekend. Pantera had a blast and that gave Jess and I a break. I can't tell you how much it helped!!! Thank you Mary! Tonight we went to dinner at the Rick's house. We forgot to put up the safety gate and Sassy peed in our room. She isn't even allowed upstairs. It was annoying but Pantera's reaction was great. She kept saying "I don't know why Sassy would pee in here. How are we going to get through this?!?" She's never very dramatic so this caught us off guard, well it made us laugh at least;)

Birth story

Sometimes I think Pantera has a much greater pull with Heavenly Father than I give her credit for. When I look back at the last year it is funny how in tune she was with everything concerning her little brother. About a year ago we were at Meredith's house and Pantera said "Mom, the girl baby in your tummy was sick. So now we are having a boy baby." I don't know what brought this up but it took me by surprise because she had never once acknowledged the baby we lost before. Then in January I found out I was pregnant and I told her she was going to have a brother or a sister coming. She looked at me very seriously and said "we are going to have a brother." I told her that it could be a sister and she again told me "No, it is a brother." Seeing the way she acts around Ezekiel, makes me have a firmer belief in the premortal life. She loves him so much, everything he does is just perfect to her and she is not easily impressed! She is adjusting well, I just need to figure it all out!!!

Physically, I feel great. A little pain here and there but that is to be expected. I had a great labor experience with him. I was a little annoyed because I went into labor on Thursday night and ended up in the hospital 3 hours before I was supposed to be induced (go figure;). From the time my contractions were getting bad at the house and the time he was out was about 12 hours. They put me on some pain medication at the hospital 1/2 a dose and I was giggling like a lunatic!!! That slowed down my progress so we waited for the new shift to start and they put me on pitocin and gave me an epidural around 8:30 am. I was ready to push around 11 am, thanks to the great nurse that we had. He was born at 11:27am, perfect at 8lbs 4oz. My favorite part was no episiotomy...what a difference in recovery!!!

He is a pretty mellow baby, as long as he is being fed constantly. He is sleeping longer in the night, about 3 hour stretches. We took him for his first checkup yesterday. They want him to be back up to his birth weight by 10 days old. Yesterday he was 5 days and he weighed in at 8lbs 13oz. I can't wait to see those rolls!!! Jess is enjoying the time off, but has decided that he won't become a stay at home dad anytime soon! I am so grateful he was able to take off of work to help. I feel incredibly blessed to have such a beautiful little family. Thank you for all of the thoughts and prayers!!!