Surgery

Here are a couple more of Katurah's one year old pictures...

 She is such a beautiful baby, but this post isn't about her.

It also isn't about her beautiful and hilarious older sister who just informed me that my hair "is a mess!"

 Nor is it about this cupboard that they are playing in, that is a wonderful post for another day. We have big things going on at this house I tell you!

  I am posting tonight to let you all know that Zeke's surgery went great. And after a few days that I thought were really going to do me in, he is starting to feel much better. We went into the surgical center around 9am on Thursday morning. He had to fast and this worried me because he asks for a drink the minute he wakes up each morning. I had a "happy surgery toy" waiting for him, so he was very distracted and dealt well with his little fast. They took him back around 10:30 am, my eyes welled up a little bit, but I did much better then I thought I would. Seeing your child wheeled away from you on a strecher just shouldn't happen, my heart goes out to those moms whose kids have life threatening issues, this was as much as I feel I can handle and it was NOTHING!!! Anywho, surgery took about 45 minutes doctor said both tonsils and adnoids were HUGE. He woke up very angry. This is where my life gets difficult. When Zeke is upset he doesn't want to be touched, or talked to for that matter. All of my mommy instincts tell me to pick up that little boy and hold him until he stops crying, but that's not what he wants and it doesn't work. It hits me that there is nothing I can do for him...he doesn't want me. But he doesn't want me to leave so I sit. I am close, but not to close. And this is what the next 3 days were like. We came home later that afternoon, he was in pain but doesn't know how to express that so he just gets mad. He woke up all throughout the night screaming, but refusing medicine. Things peaked on Saturday, by today you would never know he was ever in pain. I am so happy to have my sweet loving little boy back. I am glad it's all over with. I love you Ezekiel, you are the only man alive I would put up with that kind of attitude from, let's never do that again ok?